myself....

As days goes by I no longer know who I was.... I have stop crying (even if I want to, no longer there is tears)... no longer am I upset... the feeling I felt everyday is totally beyond description... sad? happy?... all i know by the end of the day I feel totally tired (even though I did nothing)... months has pass me like years that slip by me... sitting here blogging only realise what have I been doing after the exam? Nothing... just sat there n stare at the computer... lie in bed rotting my days away... hoping people will pop a message or two to chat with me... slip into my depression mode once every other days....

silence... onli the sound of the mp3 playing... the silence ambience sound...the sound of the msn... the sound of the icq... the sound of the sms... the ticking of the clock... silence inside me...

lost a friend this few days.. hurt him badly... but I have no intention to do that... but nothing I could do coz I don't know what is ahead of me anymore... I could no longer give a promise... nor I want to believe in anything... for i do not know either... not sure of myself... so sorry I have to let you go even to let you hate me... for now i juz want to be like "叶子"... coz i no longer know 当初怎么开始飞翔

叶子 是不会飞翔的翅膀翅膀
是落在天上的叶子天堂
原来应该不是妄想
只是我早已经遗忘
当初怎么开始飞翔

孤单 是一个人的狂欢
狂欢 是一群人的孤单
爱情 原来的开始是陪伴
但我也渐渐地遗忘
当时是怎样有人陪伴

Sorry... I need to find back myself... by myself... in order to see... to walk out the darkness.... is a journey I alone have to walk by myself... have to learn back myself... and is something that need time... I maybe fine from outside by i'm emotionally exhaust to the core... I too want to be happy and liveli like last time again.. and each day I'm trying to... like a baby taking its first step...